Enjoying the cool breeze on the deck after a long day. Full time gig chased by a part time gig chased by a beer. Master and I are building our life together, slowly. Finished the outdoor furniture last week, grill is set up now. Little by little, like a puzzle. It's strange how I connect all of this with being legitimate. Why does all this make me feel more whole? I guess to me it connects with stability issues that I have. Self esteem issues, too. Someone likes me enough to build a life with me. I shouldn't put so much weight on it; I know I should put more weight on how I feel about things. I never have before so I know it's a priority.

Aside from all that, it feels nice to stand back and take in the fact that we are building a family. I moved here about 10 months ago. Back then, I had no job set up in this new strange place. We lived in a cramped apartment that allowed no pets. Now we're in a home in the country. We have peace and space. We're allowed our pets and we finally got the dog we've wanted. Master finally has the porch and grill he's always wanted. Things may not be perfect. Sure, I don't have health insurance. At least I have income; two of them at that. This income is helping to build something for our family. That feels nice.

I am appreciative that He puts up with me and my neuroses.