In the 6 months I have relocated to this area, I have been sick 5 times. 3 of those times have occured within the last 4 weeks. 2 of these illnesses were violent stomach viruses. I can't imagine anyone who likes vomiting, but I detest it. Getting sick, to me, feels like death. It's scary, feels awful and makes me feel so alone. So, I've been sick.
The sub/slave munch: that night after returning home from work, Master and i had a terrible fight. I run, just to get anywhere but home. After calming down, I decide the best place to put my body for a few hours would still be the munch. I get lost trying to find the house, and had no phone number to call.
Good thing is, they've upped my dosage of Celexa. I'm hoping for Spring like nothing else- praying that maybe some warmth will lift my spirit out of wherever it is.
Thursday, March 5, 2009
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Oh hun i feel for you! i moved in with Beast in November and I'm still adjusting. i owned my own home for 7 years and the move required me moving my kids to another school as well. It can be hard for certain people to let go and the final relinquish of control is difficult, at least for me, as i linger grasping that last amount for dear life. The stress involved in such is enough to make you sick surely. i have even experienced the fear of not knowing anyone, having no where to go when upset, and, yes, not finding my own house. In my mind i do not think it makes us any less submissive, just headstrong and scared. i have put on weight as well and dealt with being sick often and after dealing through it all i believe much has been due to the stress and anxiety involved with the drastic changes. Just remember there is a reason you made the move and focus on that. The only thing that has successfully helped me is Beast putting His foot down and keeping me in my place. Best wishes, feel better!
~vie
I'm so sorry hon, I was hoping you'd be doing better.
We missed you at the sub's/slave's night out. I can't believe not a single one of us thought to give you our numbers, wicked thoughtless on our parts. I'm sending you mine via fet pm.
I'm feeling a lot like you right now, I need some warmth and sunshine, or I'm not sure how much longer I can make it.
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